The good the bad and the ugly

Doug lied to me to get the boys in trouble. I called him on his lie and instead of apologizing he called me dumb started throwing his axe body spray and caught the cord to the fan and proceeded to cut through his ring finger. How poetic after he keeps taking about marriage? He will never forget this moment moving forward. I hope he makes some serious changes for the better. I feel he got what he deserved. So many bad decisions. So many temper tantrums. It is time for him to grow up and be a real man. Not this lying sack of brat shit. Yes brat shit. He is a spoiled brat keeps calling me and still won’t be sincere in his apology. He apologized to get me to call the ambulance for him. All his talking and boasting. All that bravado. He thinks he is hot shit. He likes when people are afraid of him but that is not out of respect. That is misguided. I don’t want him to loose his finger the scares will remind him of his bad attitude lack of respect and bratty behavior.

Yes I am angry, no I am not going to keep him from his children. I wish he had not hurt himself so bad. I feel something this drastic had to take place for him to change. My talking, begging, pleading, and reasoning was not getting through fast enough. He is almost 50 and keeps defaulting to the adolescent stage of rebellion. I love him and want the best for him. He deserves to be happy. I don’t know why he refuses to make the changes on his own to keep the drama away. He had been doing well with others but not me. Now I think things will change.