rainy day

I am feeling a little depressed this rainy day. My oldest son is about to be 3 and he hasnt seen his father more than a total of 6 months of his entire life and my youngest son has not seen his father yet in his 6 weeks of life. I dont know why i get so mad that their father misses out on how great the two of them are, I am so proud of how smart my oldest is and how cute my youngest is growing.