My mother’s day

11 May 2009 I became a mother for the first time at the age of 25 after two years of marriage. It was a bitter sweet day, I was so happy but so tired like so many mothers feel after hours of labor. I never thought in only nine months I would be raising this precious little boy all alone with no father to teach him to stand up to pee or explain why :). But today 4 years later my precious little man can do it by himself with no help. 🙂 I can’t afford a big zoo party in the dinosaur exhibit like i wanted but it is ok he is so happy just to go out side and play and have cake with his mommy and brother. It is raining anyway so he is ok with not going too far and it is ok if we go to the zoo later. It is hard being a single mother one income doesn’t always stretch far enough to give your kids the things you want for them or the strength to hug them everyday everytime they ask. That hurts me a lot but thank good my son was blessed to be a happy baby that doesn’t need the big show right now all the time. Lol don’t get it wrong my 4 yr old is a sensative drama king, but when he asks me if I love him I never forget to hug him and kiss him and say “yes always”. I back it up by explaining why I don’t like to give him spankings and that i wish he would always listen to my words the first five times and that just because i spank him does’t mean I don’t love him, it means i love him more and want him safe and to have good behaviour. He has lately been playing on the stove and jumping up and sitting on the, steam heaters, so unfortunately this week he got more spanks than usual. Today he showed me  and told me “i am 4 now i will do better mommy. I will listen to your words.” That is the best mother’s day gift i could ever ask for in the world.