Joys and troubles

<p>I never saw myself with more than two children. I always wanted twist so I could only experience the pain of child birth once. After I pushed out my there year old I was so happy I only had one baby. I was so happy I was able to enjoy child birth for a second time it was an adventure driving my self to the hospital and getting a speeding ticket. Just to get discharged for false labor and having my water break in the courthouse. I always want to have one in each arm a kiss on both cheese today at the park I realized I forgot they could be one in front one behind and both doing something scary. I am only one person I love them both equally for totally different reasons but times like this I need there to be two. I hate Douglas isn’t here to see this and enjoy these revaluations with me. But I deserve to be with someone that wants to do these things on their own and be around without being asked or told. I have two kids to teach the proper way to act in a relationship I don’t want to teach a grown boy I deserve a MAN