but my silverlining

my tony lunmp and nathan bitty butt are my most two favorite people in the world. I hate that I can’t raise them where i want but i am at the very least able to get them most of what they want. this year i am going to make the most of the shitty situation i have been placed in. Doug thinks that he is going to weasle his way back in but it has been almost two years and although i had a second child to fit my own family plan he will not and has not been in my house since nathan was 9 months old. i mentioned earlier that i signed my lease on the 8th of feb. doug is trying real hard to try to tell me that he wants to be there to help potty train nathan and bond with tony. that is cool come on the weekends and sleep on the couch. he told me no he was sleeping in the bed with me. RED FLAG we are not together why do you feel the need to sleep with me. and two why did you stop calling for two days because i told you NO. YOU AREN’T PUNISHING ME YOU ARE HURTING YOUR SON NATHAN WHO WOULD HAVE LIKED TO TELL YOU GOOD NIGHT. BUT NOW NATHAN IS SICK OF DOUGS CRAP AND DOESN’T EVEN WANT TO TALK TO HIM ON THE PHONE. i have resolved not to cal or talk to him on my own if he cals fine i asked for 500 a month if he moved in he said he didnt have it but he hass been telling me for monthsd he has a job and has accumulated vacation days. some may think i have stupid on my face but good grief. i was listening to the drake and rhianna sond and that song is about how i feel i will start looking for another when the baggage gets to be a little lighter tony and nathan need a solid father figure now nathan is a little spoiled with mommy time although he wishes for more i am working on giving him what he needs as tony starts to sleep through the night i will be moved on by the time tony gets ready to learn to potty